Sonnet 1

Nobody said it would be easy Being a mother is a difficult task. Everyday I try not to go crazy I wonder for how long this will last. I used to sleep for eight hours straight, go out with my friends and have fun. Now I wake up early morning and stay up till late and only have an hour to get my things done. When you are asleep I sit down and think how my life has changed. I stare at your face, I don't want to blink, I don't want my life rearranged. I cherish every moment I spend with you, coz when you grow up someday, then what do I do?

*Do you remember?*

Remind me the story of how we fell in love? The hurdles we passed to be where we are today Remind me how it was When we got to how we both felt... was the same, Remember that day? Memories are memories we need to cherish Feelings are feelings Don't let it perish During that time we knew... Love wasn't easy Love was confusing Love was challenging But it sure was amazing Looking back, After so long We have held on to a love so strong It's about forgiving, Compromising Being patient and understanding Years later we know... Love still isn't easy Love still is confusing Love still is challenging But it sure is amazing

Pause

Wait. Stop. Breathe. Look around, what do you see? People walking, running, not knowing when to freeze. Sleep is what you need But you keep fighting it You want to stop and read But you keep postponing it. You should be excercising But you keep eating more food You keep procrastinating When you know it's not good. You want to confess your love You wish "he/ she was mine" The clock is ticking You are losing time. Life waits for no one Time does not wait But unless you pause and take a step back, You can't make life great. ~RTW~ 07/11/2022

Confused soul

It hurts... to love someone so much and yet know they can't love you back as they love someone else. What's confusing is, maybe they love you too but there is someone else that they love more. It's a losing battle but you still want to keep fighting. You know how the end is going to be. You know you'll be forgotten at the end. The other person will win. I know all this.. I knew all this.. and yet, I am in love. I am in love with a person I can't be with. I can't let go. I can't turn back and forget all about it. I just can't. Every time I try to let go, my heart doesn't let me. It's like I am addicted to this forbidden love. Is it worth it? I do not know. I know he loves another so deeply. I know he is hurt. He appears to be so strong and yet I know he is hurt. He is confused. Is he in love with just one other or are there two? He is supposed to know girls more than anything else, and yet I feel he is more lost than I am. I have more experience than people can imagine I would. I understand feelings more than others would think I do. I can feel pain and I know what it is like to be hurt and rejected. It's nothing new to me. This is not the first time I am in this type of situation. I know what I am doing. I know what I should do to avoid more pain, and yet, I want to go on.. It's like I am becoming immune to pain. What is this? I do not know.

Misunderstood

I'm misunderstood
You don't hear a word I say
I just wish i could explain
I've never felt this way

We talk and we talk
But you walk away
I try calling you back
You still push me away

I'm misunderstood
I know what I've done
I thought it was good
now I've got no place to run

I can see the disappointment
in your eyes
I know I've got to
Pay this price

You're misunderstood
I know i don't understand
I know you're hurt
Give me another chance

I'll start from the beginning
This is not how it should end
I will correct my mistakes
I swear I'll bend

Give me another chance
To prove myself
I need your patience
I just need your help

To get out of this mess
To change who I am
To be stubborn less
I know I can

Regret

This is going to be one sleepless night I'm remembering the things you said I'm guilty, for not treating you right I'm tossing and turning in my bed I've given away the warmth of your love The only warmth left for me are these tears Falling from my eyes with regret You are the jewel I had, but i failed to keep It's true you never know what you've lost till you let go But when you know it's for their own good, You have to lay low I just wish i could be nice I must pay, I must, this price I am one that everyone would despise I am surely the witch in disguise This sleepless night.... the moon is gone, the stars are gone.. And I deserve to be alone...

What's life?

One day a funeral, another day a wedding, one day a party and a free day in between. So many events in life, nothing stops us from going on. There are certain things we have to do from the day we are born. This involves sleepless nights, this involves endless tears, this involves hours of laughter and some days are spent in fear. Some people you like to be with, some people you are dying to meet, some people you try hard to avoid and some people you only greet. Some days you study endlessly, some nights you chat with friends, some days are dedicated for movies, and you stay awake effortlessly. Imagine if life was just one of these? imagine how boring it would be? The mixed bag of events makes life worth living and that, yourself you have to see.